LIFE IS EITHER A DARING ADVENTURE OR NOTHING AT ALL..

a silly poem frm a silly me…

"ME & MY SHIRT"

i got a blue shirt

but i always wanted white

i was such in a hurry

never checked if its right

wore it for a day

its awesome they say

i had my smiley face

but deep down i wanted white

white’s cool on a sunny day

or anyday its OK

nice on me id say

when im drivin town

or when i lay down

on the beach

or just loungin around

im sure happy with white

went to the shop

to return the top

policy says NO

got nowhere to go

back in the blue shirt

that often brings me down

im always in a frown

but ppl say its Cool

yeah, but i am no fool

i always wanted white

stucked with the blue

looks good on me

i dunno

sure doesnt feel like it

no doubt about it

my heart says white

im a blue girl

in a blue shirt

sitting by the window

so empty and hollow

then a girl came along

with a white shirt on!

i cried my heart out

COZ I LOVE WHITE!!!!

becoming 30!  ekkkk

>>> i turned 30 last december ..i know i know this topic’s  wayyyyyyyy toooo late .. hello feb??..let’s just say the "age" is  just starting to sink in…hahaha … i can’t imagine that i am 30!! …but i don’t have a choice…in numerical order 30 comes after 29!! hahahahaha ( corny )…

anyway, when i was young … 30 ppl seemed sooo old… like they have very adult conversations - very well mannered in every way - they’re  like serious ppl who are financially secure & with serious outlook in life…. or was i just surrounded with such ppl and all the wacky 30’s are out partying that’s why i haven’t seen them haha..

why am i saying this?..coz i don’t really consider myself like the "typical 30"… sure, when i have a goal i wanna achieve i most likely have strategic plans or if were given tasks id normally deliver them like any responsible individual do… that’s being responsible & goal oriented.. but the thing is, i am very childish in every  freaking way… and it scares me ( sometimes )!!..like i usually make out of the blue comments..or do things spontaneously and often than not i don’t consider  what other people might think about me…. im brutally frank.. i really do speak my mind!!.. most people i know find it hilarious.. well at least i can make people laugh haha..that’s the only good thing that i can point out hahaha…. its weird  coz i do see things like a child does…seeing things in the child’s point of view.. does that make sense at all?.. that’s probably why i do get along with kids hmmm hehehe….like i can relate to them more.. . 

i dunno usually if im around "normal" adults.. they bore me to the coreeeeeeeeeee… yeah so if you see me in a group of people and they are chatting away and i am concentrating on my dinner as if im thinking how the the food was prepared.. what was the ingredients …. as if saying to myself will i meet the chef afterwards etc ( looking sideways or face tilting ) …most likely   i am boredddddddddddd hahaha… or i just love the food.. its either THAT or THAT hahaha…..it is also possible that i don’t know what they’re yacking about hahaha.. but if they are really "normal adults" they should shift the topic that everyone can relate to.. that’s being considerate and polite hahaha…

simple stuff still amazes me… like how leaves fall from the trees and how it turns into deep reds & orange & browns.. the early morning dew… and why is that you can hear the ocean from an empty shell.. well yeah i can always check google to find out haha but i am just pointing out stuff that makes me wonder with delight hehe…i still believe in magic and that dreams really do come true … im a believer in destiny.. after life.. karma.. and the butterfly effect >> that everything happens for a reason… every situation may have both good & bad effect.. its really up to the person how he/she manage it…like a painful situation may make a person stronger & help others cope up with their own pain or it may make the person harm others as a result of the pain he/she endured…amazing huh?.. and yeah  i usually create answers to every question in life & analyze things and keep it to myself .. but about the butterfly effect i didnt make that up.. hehehe.. ive read/heard it somewhere…

i am very intuitive as well…and i often rely on it.. its weird but i seemed to "read" ppl even if just  met them for the first time.. am i psychic??.. i dunno…and i also have a few friends… there are  just a few out there like me.. hehe.. they are hard to find!! and they are really worthy to keep hehe…

i am very fun loving!! i usually put fun in everything i do..it keeps me sane…i find ways to entertain myself in the most boring situation but if i can’t help it i usually drop things  like the  bomb .. like if im bored at work i resign!! what’s the point of staying if im not happy at all??..not really practical but its my philosophy in life..like if im bored being in one place ill go somewhere else ..that’s why i love travelling!!

back to being 30.. its cool coz i got this far haha.. i thought id be joining the 27 club with kurt cobain & company haha…. but how do i put this .. hmmm i consider myself as the female version of peter pan hahahaha…i guess this is just me.. and i think ill stay this way even if im 50! haha…always in wonder…. always seing things in a different light…always seeking happiness…never mind the age its just part of the planet’s system.. even trees have rings!!!

• FRIENDSHIPS/CHATLIFE>>>

CAUTION -  this could be highly cheesy & lame but i have an excuse>> this is my first blog hahaha..

… if i could fly  to where my friends are i would… that is if money is not an issue right now! haha… coz they are ALL OVER (haha oh how i luv that word !)…

i totally miss girl bonding !! pigging out - chatting about anything in life - confessions hehe - drinking sessions - and laughing our heads off!!! moments which are highly treasured!!.. living here in a land far far way (haha…)is a nightmare since i dont have my wacky friends with me ( oh how i wish i could bring them along hehe ) its like starting from scratch!! and in comes to friends im actually choosy…great sense of humour - wacky - trustworthy -   spirit of adventure - cool  &  REAL are some traits that most of my friends have…and future friends should have hahaha

Now my best friend is my laptop!! hahaha…i am always online like everyday after work.. watching pc tv ..checking my friendster page - ids93 site - youtube - yahoo - limewire ( where i download songs )  - etc ..i occasionally go out with new found friends i met at work  or around here but now i kindda prefer to stay at home and chill… AND CHAT!

thank heavens for the creator of yahoo chatting! haha.. i rekindled friendships in high school & college and gained friends!!..for u ppl in phils. this is no biggie coz YOU HAVE A  SOCIAL LIFE! well i dont ..not really! hahaha..  my  chatmates makes my day! got loads on my yahoo list ( but most ppl seems soooo busyyy ) but here’s my current/constant chatmates >>khareen ( my btchmate in stc ) now in sweden.. michaela ( btchmate in ids93 high school ) now in alaska .. honey kim ( my new found frnd which i never thought would happen hehe ) in alaska as well .. ginx (ids93 ) in manila…woody (ids93) in wales.. liza (iliganon frnd ) swords ireland..emylou (ids93) in texas….aimee ( bestfrnd & stc btchmate ) in bahrain..

its really grand everytime i open my yahoo and chat with friends.. it takes  boredom off me…i gotta share some laughs & share probs .. in the comfort of my own home ..( hehe as if u dnt yahoo yourself)..im really grateful for my friends time with me and i think this is also my way of thanking them!!!….THANK YOU GUYSSS YOU’VE BEEN SO GREAT!!! my last bday was a blast coz it like having frnds over and party… most of my frnds were online ..we had conference!! it surely made my day extra special!!!

i know i gotta see you all in the future.. i can’t wait!! first stop.. >>sweden?? hehe paging khareen.. aimee & i will just pop in soon hehe..

chat life >>the joys of having a laugh in your pj’s .. in "just woke up look  "haha .. munching junkfood or whatever .. in your own time.. and there’s no party mess afterwardsssssssss haha… what a life!!